Aspies, Anamnesis and Injustice: The True Starseeds/Indigos and the Matrix Backlash: Life in the Simulated Reality Matrix (SRM)
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Originally posted on FB 10\11\2016
Originally posted on FB 10\11\2016
First a reminder: my first “remembered” experience with these archontic
entities occurred on 10/30/15. However, as I mention in my first post
regarding this event, these entities have been a force acting in my
life, unbeknownst to me, for at least the past decade, and for certain,
in the year preceding my first conscious contact with these entities.
Contact that remains ongoing. In writing about my experience, I’ve
decided to begin before the beginning. By this I mean, by sharing with
you the writing and experiences I had done in the year or so before I
first became aware of the active presence of these archontic entities in
my life, post 10/31/15. Simply stated, these archontic entities
“influenced and inspired” all of the writing and reading I did in the
year prior to my first coming into contact with them. I will leave it at
that for now, until such time as I can explain everything in greater
detail, with a more succinct organization and timeline of events (in
which case, the uncanniness, the synchronicities, and even the word
choice, contained in my writing, pre-contact, will make more sense, when
studied in context of pre- and post-10/31/15.)
Please keep in mind that it is the dates, along with the specificity of my thoughts and ideas, which make all that I had written in the pre-contact phase highly significant post-contact. Additionally, without having yet gone into the details of my experiences post-contact, at the time I wrote all of these entries, I next to nothing about aliens, archon, starseeds/indigos, or anything else having to do with alien interference/contact. If anything, as is the case with most writers, my interest was purely in the metaphysical, and from an atheistic point of view, though, with a general interest in theology. One further point: since my contact with these entities began, as only those who are well versed in their understanding of how these archontic entities behave, there remains always, on their part, an attempt to force the contactee into making the choice, based on what they are shown, of whether or not what they are dealing with is alien or divinity. This, of course, is highly simplified, but should speak for itself, once I begin to expand on writing about my experiences. It should also be noted how often religious rhetoric and metaphors are used in my writing, something that contradicts my actual beliefs at the time.
Further, all of my pre-contact notes – and perhaps this is what make all of my writing from this time significant - should be read with this caveat: that what I’ve come to understand post-contact (I will say it has been proven to me), and something I was never even aware of pre-contact, is that the world we live in is something closer to a computer generated reality than the “reality” most of us believe we live in.
With this in mind, this journal entry dates 5/27/15.
Reflections On My Life, In Light Of My Recent Discovery That I Was An Aspie [What one should keep in mind here is the starseed/indigo idea; something I knew absolutely nothing about when I wrote this. On the other hand, for reasons alluded to already, if a bit cryptically, at this time, I found myself suddenly interested in all things Gnostic, particularly the Cathars – a subject I knew little to nothing about before this time. Cause and effect, justice and injustice, karma, reincarnation. (Reading note: Materlinck essay on justice – Buried Temples) I believe that the inordinate injustices I’ve been experienced in my life – real injustice! for sins not committed (though can I be absolutely certain about this?) – has in some strange way a link with AS. But the implications behind such a statement must assume something of an absolute truth in regard to religion or the existence of karma as a system of absolute accountability over our behavior and actions (as AS individuals). I cannot, of course, be sure of this, but my intuition strongly suggests to me that others with AS are also aware of this same inexplicable force at work in their lives, and though the ways in which it intercedes in one’s life are many, and often for the good, almost like some form of divine protection, this same force also delivers them into situations, as innocents, that lead to their being persecuted. That is, subjected to instances that lead to their being subjected to injustice, repeatedly, in degrees from minor to major, whether it be in the form of being castigated in social situations, especially in cases involving family and friends, all the way up to being treated unjustly by the various systems of justice themselves, including the severest crimes humanity has declared punishable by law. [At the time I wrote this, I had in mind many famous and tragic figures in history who I believed had AS. I will expand upon this further, once I locate my notes on the subject.] I also believe that if one could determine whether or not those individuals subjected to the greatest forms of injustice, historically, and rectified, but only after a life of long and arduous suffering, were aspies or not, that the great majority of these individuals would, in fact, be persons who had AS. The only thing that tells me that this is so is a very profound sense of intuition, and intuition that is fed by way of connection to anamnesis, in the fullest sense of Platonic thought. [I believe I wrote this before my reading of Plato’s Republic. In any case, in the future, I will have much to say about Plato’s Republic in the future, and what role it conceivably plays in regard to the existence of the Archon.] We are the persecuted ones, and our persecution is not misperceived but fact. [Note: Strindberg. This means I had already read Strindberg’s Inferno. And before I recognized what he had gone through as archontic interference, singled him out as being AS. Also, I should note that I also had P.K. Dick in mind here; had come across his Exegesis, by mean of a very uncanny synchronicity, which I’m yet to speak about; and had decided Dick was also an aspie. If this be so, the religious implications would be staggering, in deed.]
[Here I’m skipping a section which is a bit convoluted. I will return to it later.]
I know because I have been subjected to just such a fate, repeatedly, throughout my life. What I can not give answer to is how or why such could be so. If every adult with AS could attest to the existence of such phenomena, that they find themselves subjected to more injustice in life than neurotypicals, it would suggest that some kind of higher power governing the affairs of human behavior is at work, though the logic governing it would be all but impossible to decipher, and the discovery of its existence would be the most important discovery in all of human history, one that would change the conduct of human beings for all but eternity. (See Maeterlink ~ 2021, On Justice. The Buried Temple. It would suggest continuity of existence, and an intelligence at work in Nature.) [Granted, my final statement is so simple as to be obtuse. But what makes it signficant, to me at least, is my precognative arrival at an insight I would only come to understand as true, post-abduction.
[Written 6/3/15]
Of Aspergers and Angels
Anamnesis has brought me around full-circle back to ideas I only barley intuited and found myself drawn to in the days when I first set about the idea of writing a novel, circa 2005. The novel, dealing entirely with Orphic myth and material, is yet to be completed, for my having lost it, in its entirety, on two separate occasions, both times due to unexplained computer issues, despite my having made multiple backups, on hard disk and external USB (the first time was in 2010; the second in 2015). I believe my desire to write has more to do with the process of anamnesis than with writing for the sake writing alone. In other words, I have been tasked with seeking knowledge, and what I discover in the process can be put to use in novels; or, rather, it is the novel writing process itself that facilities my acquisition of this knowledge, paving the way for anamnesis.
My novel [title withheld] came to be dominated by two major themes – Orphism, and the theme of threshold guardians, particularly the concept of the daemon. Prior to my zeroing in on these two themes, the idea of the angel was what set everything in motion, and the Book of Enoch was one of the first sources of information to present itself to me, though I did not pursue it in-depth, using it, then, only a springboard in a direction that would eventually lead me to Orphism and the guardian of the threshold as my themes of study. [This was somewhere around 2005.]
One of the single most important discoveries I have made in my quest for self-understanding, since beginning this novel, occurred several months ago (3/15). It was the day I discovered that, more likely than not, after more than forty years, that I had Asperger’s Syndrome. This revelation has given me the solution to problems I have spent a lifetime trying to figure out, and has handed me the keys necessary to unlock the many doors that now stand before me. Always on the trail of self-exploration and self-knowledge, I have been led back to the idea of the angel, and ideas hidden within texts like Enoch. [Now this statement about angels arrives out of left field. Without going into in-depth here, I will simply point out, once again, that these archontic entities were already an active influence in my life, unbeknownst to me, and that the “inspiration” that comes seeping through in my writing, in this case, religious inspiration, has a motive and purpose, one that serves to further the agenda of these archontic entities, post-abduction, and would apply equally to me as it would to any other contactee. In short, it has to do with the ways religion has been used over thousands of years to control human behavior; the rapid breakdown in recent times of religion as a means of such human control; and for the purpose of studying the ways in which human beings accept or reject religious belief in the face of “evidence,” along with ways in which “evidence” can be strengthened to compel belief. Obviously, I will have much more to say about this in the future.]
[To be continued]
An Aspie/Starseed Journal Entry ~ April 2015.
I wonder sometimes if I’m not a sinner who is in denial about his sins. [Again, here is a vein of the theological suddenly cropping up in my writing.] For, after all, it’s hard sometimes to understand why my life has been filled with so much loneliness, sense of loss, and sadness. I have not murdered, raped, pillaged or plundered. I have been a quite person all my life, miffed by my own sense of wonderment. I have been searching my whole life but I know not for what. I sit here at my desk, the tall, French-style glass doors thrown open. The air is brisk, the tips of my fingers cold, the birds in the tree just beyond my balcony chirp, and their twittering diminishes the sadness I feel for being alive. Why should I feel sad for my life, when I’m not one who does evil in this world? This life of ours is so strange, and when I think that my father and brother are no longer of this world, I think death stranger still. I can be venomous against those who call themselves “believers.” But I don’t begrudge the religious their God or prayer. In fact, I wish them well, if it helps them to avoid the powerful loneliness and sadness that has always been so familiar to me. But it is these same prayer sayers who look down on those who do not agree. How can they not understand the folly in such narrow-minded thinking? Man killing in the name of God is the proof that there is no God, or else, he is dead, and it was probably man who slaughtered him.
Soundgarden - 4th of July
Please keep in mind that it is the dates, along with the specificity of my thoughts and ideas, which make all that I had written in the pre-contact phase highly significant post-contact. Additionally, without having yet gone into the details of my experiences post-contact, at the time I wrote all of these entries, I next to nothing about aliens, archon, starseeds/indigos, or anything else having to do with alien interference/contact. If anything, as is the case with most writers, my interest was purely in the metaphysical, and from an atheistic point of view, though, with a general interest in theology. One further point: since my contact with these entities began, as only those who are well versed in their understanding of how these archontic entities behave, there remains always, on their part, an attempt to force the contactee into making the choice, based on what they are shown, of whether or not what they are dealing with is alien or divinity. This, of course, is highly simplified, but should speak for itself, once I begin to expand on writing about my experiences. It should also be noted how often religious rhetoric and metaphors are used in my writing, something that contradicts my actual beliefs at the time.
Further, all of my pre-contact notes – and perhaps this is what make all of my writing from this time significant - should be read with this caveat: that what I’ve come to understand post-contact (I will say it has been proven to me), and something I was never even aware of pre-contact, is that the world we live in is something closer to a computer generated reality than the “reality” most of us believe we live in.
With this in mind, this journal entry dates 5/27/15.
Reflections On My Life, In Light Of My Recent Discovery That I Was An Aspie [What one should keep in mind here is the starseed/indigo idea; something I knew absolutely nothing about when I wrote this. On the other hand, for reasons alluded to already, if a bit cryptically, at this time, I found myself suddenly interested in all things Gnostic, particularly the Cathars – a subject I knew little to nothing about before this time. Cause and effect, justice and injustice, karma, reincarnation. (Reading note: Materlinck essay on justice – Buried Temples) I believe that the inordinate injustices I’ve been experienced in my life – real injustice! for sins not committed (though can I be absolutely certain about this?) – has in some strange way a link with AS. But the implications behind such a statement must assume something of an absolute truth in regard to religion or the existence of karma as a system of absolute accountability over our behavior and actions (as AS individuals). I cannot, of course, be sure of this, but my intuition strongly suggests to me that others with AS are also aware of this same inexplicable force at work in their lives, and though the ways in which it intercedes in one’s life are many, and often for the good, almost like some form of divine protection, this same force also delivers them into situations, as innocents, that lead to their being persecuted. That is, subjected to instances that lead to their being subjected to injustice, repeatedly, in degrees from minor to major, whether it be in the form of being castigated in social situations, especially in cases involving family and friends, all the way up to being treated unjustly by the various systems of justice themselves, including the severest crimes humanity has declared punishable by law. [At the time I wrote this, I had in mind many famous and tragic figures in history who I believed had AS. I will expand upon this further, once I locate my notes on the subject.] I also believe that if one could determine whether or not those individuals subjected to the greatest forms of injustice, historically, and rectified, but only after a life of long and arduous suffering, were aspies or not, that the great majority of these individuals would, in fact, be persons who had AS. The only thing that tells me that this is so is a very profound sense of intuition, and intuition that is fed by way of connection to anamnesis, in the fullest sense of Platonic thought. [I believe I wrote this before my reading of Plato’s Republic. In any case, in the future, I will have much to say about Plato’s Republic in the future, and what role it conceivably plays in regard to the existence of the Archon.] We are the persecuted ones, and our persecution is not misperceived but fact. [Note: Strindberg. This means I had already read Strindberg’s Inferno. And before I recognized what he had gone through as archontic interference, singled him out as being AS. Also, I should note that I also had P.K. Dick in mind here; had come across his Exegesis, by mean of a very uncanny synchronicity, which I’m yet to speak about; and had decided Dick was also an aspie. If this be so, the religious implications would be staggering, in deed.]
[Here I’m skipping a section which is a bit convoluted. I will return to it later.]
I know because I have been subjected to just such a fate, repeatedly, throughout my life. What I can not give answer to is how or why such could be so. If every adult with AS could attest to the existence of such phenomena, that they find themselves subjected to more injustice in life than neurotypicals, it would suggest that some kind of higher power governing the affairs of human behavior is at work, though the logic governing it would be all but impossible to decipher, and the discovery of its existence would be the most important discovery in all of human history, one that would change the conduct of human beings for all but eternity. (See Maeterlink ~ 2021, On Justice. The Buried Temple. It would suggest continuity of existence, and an intelligence at work in Nature.) [Granted, my final statement is so simple as to be obtuse. But what makes it signficant, to me at least, is my precognative arrival at an insight I would only come to understand as true, post-abduction.
[Written 6/3/15]
Of Aspergers and Angels
Anamnesis has brought me around full-circle back to ideas I only barley intuited and found myself drawn to in the days when I first set about the idea of writing a novel, circa 2005. The novel, dealing entirely with Orphic myth and material, is yet to be completed, for my having lost it, in its entirety, on two separate occasions, both times due to unexplained computer issues, despite my having made multiple backups, on hard disk and external USB (the first time was in 2010; the second in 2015). I believe my desire to write has more to do with the process of anamnesis than with writing for the sake writing alone. In other words, I have been tasked with seeking knowledge, and what I discover in the process can be put to use in novels; or, rather, it is the novel writing process itself that facilities my acquisition of this knowledge, paving the way for anamnesis.
My novel [title withheld] came to be dominated by two major themes – Orphism, and the theme of threshold guardians, particularly the concept of the daemon. Prior to my zeroing in on these two themes, the idea of the angel was what set everything in motion, and the Book of Enoch was one of the first sources of information to present itself to me, though I did not pursue it in-depth, using it, then, only a springboard in a direction that would eventually lead me to Orphism and the guardian of the threshold as my themes of study. [This was somewhere around 2005.]
One of the single most important discoveries I have made in my quest for self-understanding, since beginning this novel, occurred several months ago (3/15). It was the day I discovered that, more likely than not, after more than forty years, that I had Asperger’s Syndrome. This revelation has given me the solution to problems I have spent a lifetime trying to figure out, and has handed me the keys necessary to unlock the many doors that now stand before me. Always on the trail of self-exploration and self-knowledge, I have been led back to the idea of the angel, and ideas hidden within texts like Enoch. [Now this statement about angels arrives out of left field. Without going into in-depth here, I will simply point out, once again, that these archontic entities were already an active influence in my life, unbeknownst to me, and that the “inspiration” that comes seeping through in my writing, in this case, religious inspiration, has a motive and purpose, one that serves to further the agenda of these archontic entities, post-abduction, and would apply equally to me as it would to any other contactee. In short, it has to do with the ways religion has been used over thousands of years to control human behavior; the rapid breakdown in recent times of religion as a means of such human control; and for the purpose of studying the ways in which human beings accept or reject religious belief in the face of “evidence,” along with ways in which “evidence” can be strengthened to compel belief. Obviously, I will have much more to say about this in the future.]
[To be continued]
An Aspie/Starseed Journal Entry ~ April 2015.
I wonder sometimes if I’m not a sinner who is in denial about his sins. [Again, here is a vein of the theological suddenly cropping up in my writing.] For, after all, it’s hard sometimes to understand why my life has been filled with so much loneliness, sense of loss, and sadness. I have not murdered, raped, pillaged or plundered. I have been a quite person all my life, miffed by my own sense of wonderment. I have been searching my whole life but I know not for what. I sit here at my desk, the tall, French-style glass doors thrown open. The air is brisk, the tips of my fingers cold, the birds in the tree just beyond my balcony chirp, and their twittering diminishes the sadness I feel for being alive. Why should I feel sad for my life, when I’m not one who does evil in this world? This life of ours is so strange, and when I think that my father and brother are no longer of this world, I think death stranger still. I can be venomous against those who call themselves “believers.” But I don’t begrudge the religious their God or prayer. In fact, I wish them well, if it helps them to avoid the powerful loneliness and sadness that has always been so familiar to me. But it is these same prayer sayers who look down on those who do not agree. How can they not understand the folly in such narrow-minded thinking? Man killing in the name of God is the proof that there is no God, or else, he is dead, and it was probably man who slaughtered him.
Soundgarden - 4th of July
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