Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet, and Living Within a Simulated Matrix Reality

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I've recently came into contact with Pessoa's Book of Disquiet, and flipping through (for it's that kind of book it is) while drinking coffee at a swampy lake side cafe in Vietnam, I was hit between the eyes with the realization that Pessoa, though he didn't have the concepts or vocabulary to imagine and write about existence - that is, "life" - within a simulation, generated by a matrix-like game engine, he did know that "life" amounted to little more than an illusion controlled by the "gods" or sometimes "God." That said, as to his views about the "gods" and "God" his passages tend towards thoughts like this: "Where is God, even if he doesn't exist? I want to pray and to weep, to repent of crimes I didn't commit, to enjoy the feeling of forgiveness like a caress that's more than maternal."

In reading him, and as despairing as much of his writing is, and given what this world is, how could one not despair, I found that within his observations about life, written between 1913 - 1930s, are hidden some gems of wisdom helpful to those of us awake today, navigating through a world we are in but not of - that is, not allowing ourselves to become so caught up in the dream that the dream devours us; or put another way, given that our eyes have been opened to the truth, how to avoid going back to sleep, either because the truth is too painful for us to accept, or the hidden ones, who see our awakened awareness as a threat to their control of this world, do all in their power to lull us back to sleep by subjecting us to whatever specific programs of tailor made illusion they think will best entice us, thus pulling us back into the dream, lulling us back to sleep, so that they can once again control us, and resume devouring us through the dream of sleep.

[Time constraints force me to leave it here for now....]

23: "Let's act like sphinxes, however falsely, until we reach the point of no longer knowing who we are. For we are, in fact, false sphinxes, with no idea of what we are in reality. The only way to be in agreement with life is to disagree with ourselves. Absurdity is divine.

Let's develop theories, patiently and honestly thinking them out, in order to promptly act against them - acting and justifying our actions with new theories that condemn them. Let's cut a path in life and then go immediately against that path. Let's adopt all the poses and gestures of something we aren't and don't wish to be, and don't even wish to be taken for being."

68: "The weariness caused by all illusions and all that they entail - our losing them, the uselessness of our having them, the pre-weariness of having to have them in order to lose them, the regret of having had them, the intellectual chagrin of having had them while knowing full well they would end."

97: "The truly wise man is the one who can keep external events from changing him in any way. To do this, he covers himself  with an armour of realities closer to him than the world's facts and through which the facts, modified accordingly, reach him.

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